Why..??human feelingsssss!!!

I'm alone now,listening music...
&
I feel lonely...
BU^T...
WHY..??WHY???WHY????WHY???WHY??WHY???
why will I think about him??
The moment w.......ith.................!!!
€why will I think on him??
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!
I shouldn't....
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!
O ###GGG!!!!
chan lai yeng...please remind yourself always...although that's a happy moment for u...
But [;please...remember always...remember..that's just a illusion....shou;dn't desire.......!!!!shouln't...still have lots of things waiting for u!![please...must control yourself....!!

emmmm..HMMMMMM!!!I feel scare,,helpless...I don't wish to step in againzzz...=(